What I hate about cancer - What Cancer Survivors said.

• for changing my life
• Absolutely everything
• aches, no breast
• All it strips away from you.
• Being away from the one I love.
• Being nauceous 24/7
• being scared
• Being seen as 'the cancer mom' of three small children.
• Being Sick & in Pain
• Besides the fact that it sucks?
• Can seem to get rid of it
• Can't enjoy my wine man! The stress & distress it brings to the ones I love.
• changed my life completely
• Chemo
• Chemo is worse than the cancer itself
• Chemotherapy
• Everything
• Everything I'm Not A Good Sick Person
• everything!!!!!
• Everything.
• fatigue
• fear
• Feeling like a victim
• Financial, Inconvenience
• Getting that sick and horrible feeling after chemo
• Health illnesses, diseases post treatment
• Hearing "I don't know" from my Dr.
• Heh...too many to count. Read my blog. If cornered for an answer, I'd have to say the stinking, never-ending fatigue that the doctors insisted there was no reason for and therefore didn't exist.
• Hosting it
• How I have been treated by some family and friends. I'm not dead.
• how it affects my children
• How it effects the people around me.
• How it effects your family and friends
• How it hurts soooo many people!
• How it Interferes with my Life and my Joy
• How it makes me feel physically and emotionally
• How it scares my kids
• HOW IT SUCKS LIFE AND HOPE OUT OF PEOPLE
• How its changed my life
• How my illness caused my son pain.
• How others perceive it.
• Hurt..And Death
• I can't forget that it is with me every day
• I don't hate the cancer, I hate that it took the cancer for me to begin living.
• I hate being on chemotherapy and my family suffuring along with me
• I hate CANCER
• I hate everything about cancer.
• I hate EVERYTHING about cancer.
• I hate that it hurts so many people
• I hate the sense of loss of control over my own existence
• I have no control over it.
• I have NO control!!!!!!!
• I have no energy, the doctors all say something different
• I MISS MY DAD.......AND THEIR IS A CURE!!!
• I thought it was losing my hair now I don't know
• I want my old life back.
• I'm newly dx my fear is not knowing what is yet to come....
• I'm not able to do many things with my family
• It can kill us and it hurts.
• it changes from day to day but the brain one scares me most
• It comes back...sometimes
• it destroys both people and there femilies
• It does not discriminate
• It effects my memory. My father was killed in a car wreck two years ago. He raised me on his own. Sadly, now I am forget so many great memories that we created together.
• It effects so many that you love
• It happens to good people
• It happens to good people, and it comes back sometimes..
• It has taken my husband's intellect and our special chemistry
• It has taken my husband's personality and my sense of humor
• It is a lonely road.
• It is silent but can be deadly
• It makes you doubt about any future in life
• It makes you feel like something inside is dying.
• It only takes ,it never gives.
• It steals time, pride and faith.
• It stops you before you ever realize it.
• It threatens to leave my children to grow up without their mother.
• It took away 3 years of my life.....
• It won't go away permanently
• It's a murderer
• it's frightening.
• It's just rude
• It's ruthless
• it's scary
• It's the unwanted gift that keeps on giving
• It's very existence
• its aking me away from my babies
• Its relentlessness
• Its sneaky.
• Just having it
• Knowing that I lost my brother and then my dad to cancer. And haveing to watch my mom go through it again with yet another member of her family. I see her fear and keep telling her I am ok.
• Lack of energy and extreme weakness
• Lethargy
• Long term effects
• Losing my hair
• losing my hair, my identity and the Chemobrain
• Loss of control and what it does to my love ones.
• Loss of strength and stamina
• Missing the beautiful people that it took away in my life!
• Mouth Sores
• My 3 year old has to suffer...
• Neuropathy - I now walk with a walker and electric wheelchair
• Never being able to take a normal BM
• Not being able to do everything I used to do
• Not being able to go back to work
• Not being in control. I have always been very independent.
• Not knowing how long I've had it!
• Not knowing if treatment is working
• Not knowing what is next, or what questions to ask
• Not knowing whats going to happen next
• not understanding what is happening
• Our future is uncertain.
• Pain
• People not being able to enjoy the things they used to enjoy...among 1000 other things.
• robs the energy from your body
• Sad faces!
• Scheduling my life around my treatments
• seeing other people's reactions when I tell them I have cancer.
• Seeing the fear my teenage daughter tries to hide, and seeing others having to go through it
• side effects during and after
• Silent Killer
• stress
• Taken my freedom away
• that cancer has a mind of its own, and how it loves to alter peoples lives.
• That hospitals and clinics can add so much to the folks who are already suffering!
• That I am allowing it to control my life.
• That I cannot make it better, that I cannot make it go away. I must have help and the help may hurt me and perhaps may not help.
• That I could have prevented it.
• That it can have a mind of it's own
• That it exists
• That it happened to me.
• that it has and continues to consume my hero, my friend, my mate
• That it hurts everyone around it.......
• That it robbed me of my Family and my nephew of his Mother
• That it scares the hell out of me
• THAT IT TAKES THE ONES I LOVE
• That ovarian is called the "silent killer"...
• That so many of us let it beat us.
• That the treatment available in the United States is so debilitating and provides no cure.
• That the world gets smaller and more people have it.
• That treatment aged me quicker at least 10 years.
• The Chemo
• The constant unknowns
• The Doctors
• The fact that I am no longer able to do the things I really love....
• The fatique and weakness, plus the fear I might lose the battle before my grandchildren get older.
• The fear I see in the eyes of the people I love.
• The fear it instills
• The fear of it returning...
• The feeling of being fine mentally but trapped phsyically.
• The hurt it brings to everyone and how it can be sneaky.
• The inability to work and provide for my family as I NEVER remarried since div. in 1986. And, being in this ALONE, for I do NOT LIKE to burden my children
• The little voice way in the back of your mind that says what if its back?
• the pain and running to the doctors.
• The randomness of who it strikes.
• the red bag
• the side effects and feeling that life just isnt normal
• The side effects during the therapy like hair loss, chemo brain, nausea and vomitting.
• The stress associated with my mom having a life threatening disease that I can't do anything about!
• The suffering it causes the person going through it.
• The toll that the therapy takes on the patient
• The underlining ignorance in Corporate America.
• The way it changes one's life.
• The way it has changed my ability to physically interact with my little boy.
• The way it is creeps up on me and slaps me round the face when I least expect it.
• The Way Leukemia Isolates Me From People
• The word
• The word itself
• There's not enough room
• They way it sneaks up on you!
• TO SEE A PERSON U CARE ABOUT SUFFERING
• waiting
• Waiting for test results!!
• Watching it suck the life out of my mother
• Watching someone wonderful suffering
• What I hate most about cancer is not knowing if it will return or not!
• What it is doing to my husband
• whats NOT to hate LOL
• whats there to like
• When people we know die
• wondering if it will come back
• Worrying about it coming back!
• You can't hide from it
• You never feel Your body is rid of it
• Your friends forget who you are and think only about the fact that you have cancer